I find myself always looking at my phone, wandering off in my own world to listen for a phone call. When my phone rings, I immediately think, is this the call I've been waiting for? My eyes quickly go to the number and then the location of the incoming call, only to discover it is a telamarketer or spam.
When I do receive a call from a family member or friend, it isn't that I'm not happy to talk to them, but there is a real disappointment. At times, during the conversation I feel my mind wandering again thinking about what if this was the call. How would I respond: would it be awkward, would I feel a connection to this woman immediately, would she feel the same towards me? It quickly becomes a downward spiral that is difficult to escape. By the time my mind comes back to reality, I realize I wasn't present in the moment, and I truly have no idea what that conversation was about. Then there's this feeling of guilt.
I try to avoid this behavior, but it's literally the hardest thing to do. Does anyone have any tips or tricks?