I think Tom Petty sang it best
I find myself always looking at my phone, wandering off in my own world to listen for a phone call. When my phone rings, I immediately think, is this the call I've been waiting for? My eyes quickly go to the number and then the location of the incoming call, only to discover it is a telamarketer or spam.
When I do receive a call from a family member or friend, it isn't that I'm not happy to talk to them, but there is a real disappointment. At times, during the conversation I feel my mind wandering again thinking about what if this was the call. How would I respond: would it be awkward, would I feel a connection to this woman immediately, would she feel the same towards me? It quickly becomes a downward spiral that is difficult to escape. By the time my mind comes back to reality, I realize I wasn't present in the moment, and I truly have no idea what that conversation was about. Then there's this feeling of guilt.
I try to avoid this behavior, but it's literally the hardest thing to do. Does anyone have any tips or tricks?
Praying that this journey is filled with joy greater than anxiety, smiles more often than tears, but love always!💖🙏💖